We’ve updated our Terms of Use to reflect our new entity name and address. You can review the changes here.
We’ve updated our Terms of Use. You can review the changes here.

Therapy For A Cynic

by Joseph E Harrison

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

      $7 NZD  or more

     

1.
Moon 04:24
Moon When the moon casts rings among the clouds, When ladders touch the sea, When the harbour gleams like perfect glass, Do you remember what we used to be? When the moon is high, When the water shines, Do you remember what we used to be? Do you remember what we used to be? So hard to recall sometimes. Do you remember? J E Harrison
2.
Explain 02:56
Explain Am I not the one Who hurts you 'til you’re numb? Is this not the very voice To utter words that strike you dumb? It’s the way we play the game. This silence is golden With overtones of grey. You and I were chosen To look the other way, In peace, I suppose, But that’s not the way we choose to play. It’s the way we play the game. I shouldn’t have to explain. And you can scream if you want to; I won’t hear. I am older. I am wiser, And I’m so full of shit and I’m so full of fear. It’s the way we play the game. Yeah, this silence is a blessing, This plugging of my ears. I block you out; it’s your move now. It’s your move now. It’s your move now. J E Harrison
3.
Baby, You Lied When will you be my lover? I’ve watched and I’ve waited, And it seems to me you’re living a lie. I thought we had a deal, But he still has his wife. When will you be my lover? I’ve waited and waited. I watched your house all night. I thought we had a deal. Oh, we could have such a life. I thought we had a deal. But baby, you lied. I remember every smile, The breadcrumbs you would leave. You gave me all the signals Like they say in magazines. And I was right outside your window As he kissed your perfect face. Who’s he think he’s fooling? Can’t you see he’s sleeping in my place? When will you be my lover? I’ve waited and waited and waited and waited. I thought we had a deal. I thought we had a deal. But baby, you lied. J E Harrison
4.
Blameless I cannot tell you what I've done. I guess you'll find out when the headlines come. I planned a shock for everyone. I wakeup call. But it's all gone wrong. I cannot tell you what I said. But my words will live on long after I'm dead. I had it figured in my head But they shut me down for the life that I led. I couldn't justify a moment more Living somebody else's life. I cannot tell you who's to blame But I guarantee you'll remember my name. I couldn't justify a moment more Living somebody else's life. I'm hardly blameless but you're not so pure Did you think I'd just give up and die? All those clowns were making sounds Never caring if the consequences damned us all to hell. Someone had to do something. I knew it wouldn't be you So I took this bloody duty on myself. I cannot tell you what I've done. I cannot tell you what I've done. J E Harrison
5.
Crocodile 04:57
Crocodile Basking under sunny skies, Grin your lizard grin. Pierce the gloom with scheming eyes And draw the suckers in. Someone with no depth, no shame, Some people just don’t bleed. As arid as this world you made, Adjust your shades. Lie to me. Fix that smile, you crocodile, Cheating karma for a while. The plans you made were set in stone And there’s nowhere left to go. Cry, cry, crocodile. Let go. Somehow getting what you need got harder every day. No matter what you told them, Or how you sold them. Pretty far from what you were, An echo of yourself, Hollowed out by fears of getting left upon the shelf. Fix that smile, you crocodile, Cheating karma for a while. The plans you made were set in stone And there’s nowhere left to go. Cry, cry, crocodile. Let go. And when your time is up they’ll drag you from the shade. Feel the panic start to rise. The cracks begin to show, the water’s looking dark, As the birds that picked your teeth for scraps Sow the seeds of your demise. Fix that smile, you crocodile, Cheating karma for a while. The plans you made were set in stone And there’s nowhere left to go. Cry, cry, crocodile. Let go. J E Harrison
6.
Drag You Down There were hard paths to follow. There were hard facts to face. You believed that we could make a difference. I was the one who gave up the chase. We will go together. We will go together. And I will drag you down, I will drag you down, I will drag you down. And though my words seemed so hollow, Some perversion retained your faith. You, it seemed, could not sense my motive. You fell with me, as I fell from grace. We will go together. We will go together. And I will drag you down, I will drag you down, I will drag you down. J E Harrison
7.
Need To Know 03:15
Need To Know I’m not in search of some wise old teacher. I’m only here cos I’m killing time. I seek no proof of a life beyond this. I place no faith in scripts and signs. I broke my silence to pray for nothing. There’s a joy in the gutter that was killing me. Ten years on, I was still so hungry. All your words were just chicken feed. Oh, no. You’re not someone I need to know. You seem to want something more from me. These pockets are ragged. You dug too deep. You claim to feel in ways I can’t imagine. Does that make you bigger than me? A shallow soul has a weight to break you. I ought to know and I feel your pain. I won’t pretend this could bring us closer. I don’t intend to go there again. Oh, no. You’re not someone I need to know. J E Harrison
8.
Five Thousand Days Honey, the kids are crying. And Honey, my patience is dying. Sure, why not? Hell, take the house The dog, the TV and the money. I’ll just keep this old guitar And two small things that call you Mummy. Tomorrow you won’t remember this fight. Honey, which bottle are you sleeping in tonight? Honey, I’m so tired of being so afraid. And Honey, I can barely talk to you these days. Relax, I’ll put the kids to bed. Just light a fag and pour another. There’s no need to make a fuss, I’m sure they know you’re a loving mother. Tomorrow’s another chance to put it right. Oh Honey, which bottle are you hiding in tonight? Seems we’ve always felt this way, Something like five thousand days. I’m tired, and I don’t care anymore About so much that’s so important. I don’t know when I lost the will to fight. Honey, here’s to us. I’m leaving you tonight. J E Harrison
9.
They Came From Nowhere Half way out of sleep, Half way in a dream, Out of the blue it’s time to go. Can’t picture your face. Can’t even think straight. Can’t see a way out. Is it time to go? Cos I don’t recognise these darkest dreams of mine. They came from nowhere, They came from nowhere. Oh, my love, don’t look at me. I’m not at my best. You need to learn to read between The things I say to test you. Oh, my child, I’m certain someday All your deepest fears Will all amount to nothing, Will all amount to nothing. Cos I don’t recognise these darkest dreams of mine. They came from nowhere. No, I don’t recognise these darkest dreams of mine. And I may not be there for you. Did you ever think of that? It’s not paranoid to face the truth: Maybe I’m not coming back. No, I don’t recognise these darkest dreams of mine. They came from nowhere, They came from nowhere, They came from nowhere. J E Harrison
10.
The Rest of My Days In this wonderful room, Revisiting tunes from twenty years ago, Feels like picking at a wound. I only want to think about You, But pieces of my past always find a way through. I should let go. I know, I know, I know… Think I’m going insane. Trapped by my habits, I wish I could change. Resentment sits barely contained. Decades of rage, Blaming the world for mistakes that I made. I should let go. I know, I know, I know. I should let go. Maybe these magical spells will free me, Like a cry for aid, If I cast them to the wind and quietly walk away. When they’re done will I be free to be me? No longer enslaved? Will they let me begin the rest of my days? I should let go. I know, I know, I know. I should let go. Heading for fifty, I’m sick of the grip That the last thirty years seem to have on my soul. They sit on my shoulders, those bastards who told me To do things their way, and I can’t break their hold. Is there some trick I don’t know? Maybe these magical spells will free me, Like a cry for aid, If I cast them to the wind and quietly walk away. When they’re done will I be free to be me? No longer enslaved? Will they let me begin the rest of my days? Will they let me begin the rest of my days? J E Harrison
11.
Blameless I cannot tell you what I've done. I guess you'll find out when the headlines come. I planned a shock for everyone. I wakeup call. But it's all gone wrong. I cannot tell you what I said. But my words will live on long after I'm dead. I had it figured in my head But they shut me down for the life that I led. I couldn't justify a moment more Living somebody else's life. I cannot tell you who's to blame But I guarantee you'll remember my name. I couldn't justify a moment more Living somebody else's life. I'm hardly blameless but you're not so pure Did you think I'd just give up and die? All those clowns were making sounds Never caring if the consequences damned us all to hell. Someone had to do something. I knew it wouldn't be you So I took this bloody duty on myself. I cannot tell you what I've done. I cannot tell you what I've done. J E Harrison

about

Therapy For A Cynic:

Some of these songs began their lives some twenty-five years ago.

Through the years, through all the ups and downs, through live performance with my band Tower Of Flints, through time spent revising and re-revising them in my studio, they have changed and developed into what they are today.

And they just won’t leave me alone.

Although, as Da Vinci allegedly said, ‘Art is never finished, only abandoned,’ my hope is that in releasing them into the world in their current, ‘finished’ state, and regardless of whether they find an audience, I will be able to put them behind me and move on.

Needless to say, I am a very different person now to who I was when many of these were first composed.

Throughout my life I have worked with and learned from some incredible musicians, whose friendship, collaboration and encouragement have in one way or another helped me to learn my craft and bring this music to something like a conclusion.

So, I would like to thank (in no particular order):

Felix Nesbitt, Chris Fursdon, Daniel Edmonds, Frankie Berninzon Arellano, Sarah Lyne, Carl Mann, Chris Hart, Matt Coplon, Andy Hobson, Alan Russell, Walter Wray, David Bloom, Keighty Maught’n, Harry Rowland, Andy Woodd, Garry West, Steven Lay, Alvin Gay, Anthony Beaver, the whole Outland Crew and the current, amazing rhythm section of Tower Of Flints: Jared King and Corey Wilkinson.

And most of all, my great friend and creative partner, Neil Beales.

Thanks (of course!) to my kids, Anthony and Belle, for putting up with a dad who still dreams of being a rock star.

And finally, for her incredible patience and encouragement (and her beautiful voice on Moon) my wonderful wife, Charlotte.

I hope you enjoy this music. I hope you play it loud.

All the best. Thanks for listening.

Joseph E Harrison, June 25th 2023

credits

released July 1, 2023

All tracks written, performed and produced by Joseph E Harrison.
Additional backing vocals on Moon by Charlotte Kerr.

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Joseph E Harrison Wellington, New Zealand

Joseph E Harrison is an English songwriter, singer and musician who now lives in Wellington, New Zealand.
Incorporating loud guitars, feedback, multi-layered vocal harmonies and dark, ambiguous lyrics, Joseph's songs delve into questions of love, regret, betrayal, obsession and insanity.
As well as his solo work, he is also the frontman for Wellington-based rock band, Tower Of Flints.
... more

contact / help

Contact Joseph E Harrison

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Report this album or account

Joseph E Harrison recommends:

If you like Joseph E Harrison, you may also like: